Translation by Dr. Sant Singh Khalsa
I have wasted much and grown foolish and grabbing — but now, at last, I am weary of going wrong.
I cannot shake the fear of dying; this worry is eating away at my body.
This part says that real change often starts when you are simply tired of going the wrong way.
Fun karat paap ab haaraa — now, at last, I am weary of doing wrong. This is one of the truest lines about change in the raag. It doesn't come as a big, proud turnaround. It comes as tiredness. He is just worn out by the old way.
Real turning often begins right here. Not with a hero's resolve, but at the point where old habits finally lose their pull. Think of a video game you played for hours. One day you just put it down, bored of it.
He is also honest that the fear still bites. Tih chintaa tan jaaraa — this worry wears my body down. He hasn't found peace yet. He is in the middle: tired of the old, scared, still holding on. Guru Tegh Bahadur treats that messy middle with respect. It is the real, unfinished middle of a real change.
Have you ever changed something not by force, but just by getting genuinely tired of the old way? Is that a real kind of strength?
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