Sikhism·Raag Maaroo·Shabad 70
Verse 3 of 9

Carrying What I'm Not Proud Of, I Still Reach Home

ਪੇਈਅੜੈ ਡੋਹਾਗਣੀ ਸਾਹੁਰੜੈ ਕਿਉ ਜਾਉ ॥
pay-ee-arhai dohaaganee saahurrhai ki-o jaa-o.
I am a rejected bride, abandoned in my parents' home; how can I go to my in-laws now?
ਮੈ ਗਲਿ ਅਉਗਣ ਮੁਠੜੀ ਬਿਨੁ ਪਿਰ ਝੂਰਿ ਮਰਾਉ ॥੨॥
mai gal a-ugan muth-rhee bin pir jhoor maraa-o. ||2||
I wear my faults around my neck; without my Husband Lord, I am grieving, and wasting away to death. ||2||

Translation by Dr. Sant Singh Khalsa

In plain words

Sometimes I feel far away, as if I have not yet made it home.

I carry mistakes I am not proud of. But even so, the missing itself is a kind of love pulling me back toward the One.

Even the feeling of being far away is love, quietly pulling you home.
The deeper layer

Even while carrying faults, the heart can long for home, and the longing pulls it back.

Pay-ee-arhai dohaaganee — the picture is a bride still in her parents' home, feeling far from her husband's house. Saahurrhai ki-o jaa-o — how can I go there now?

Mai gal a-ugan — I wear my faults around my neck. Without the Beloved, the heart aches. That ache is honest. It shows how much the heart misses what it loves, and it turns the heart homeward.

Think of being away at camp and missing home. The homesick feeling hurts, and it also tells you exactly where you belong.

A Question to Sit With

When you make a mistake, how can missing what is good help you find your way back?

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